Break Over

It's been a great break from school, long enough to be considered a real break too. I am ready to take couple days to refocus and be compose for the up coming term. I am pretty excited for the up coming term. It was unfortunate that everyone is so busy during Christmas... well, fortunate actually, but what i mean to say is that i only get to spend a portion of time with some of my friends as its split between family, significant other, and other friends. But it is absolutely fortunate that we can spend time with so many of our love ones.

I think one thing that is really missing and the gap continually widening is my relationship with our Father. I thought things would get better as i get home, and reintegrate with my small group as well as with church. But in fact it didn't get better, it just prolong the inevitable. I need to really do something about my discipline... i've seen the signs, and did nothing. Now, when i am praying and reading the bible, i feel disconnected, and unfocused. Anyway, just more complaining than anything, i know i need a change.

Well, Toronto, it's been great for the past 3 weeks, i can't wait to come back. But this time, i think i will definitely plan a bit more..... and just get away to other areas too. But i am also hoping to be able to entertain more guest in the UK this upcoming year. Anyway, will write again when i land in the UK.

It's a White Christmas!

So I am back in Toronto for Christmas this year. It's been great seeing friends, old roommates, and family. It's amazing how things.... seem different when you come back after stepping away for a little while. I think when you're away, you end up having to answer questions you wouldn't of otherwise asked, prepare everything things that you might not need to when you're settle, and lastly, be dependent on the grace of others you have no expectation of. I find myself realizing that I am more comfortable and confident of who i've become, questions of ethics and action are more firmly answered. When you're with a new group of people constantly, you find out whether you're okay with being alone, when you have to be flexible and wait for others, put others first. Then you realize, when you're in a new town as a student, where it is definitely not as convenient without a car, you realize whether you CAN walk for class, grocery, get around, and basically whether you can setup camp in a new country. I have so much more appreciation for people who don't drive and manage just fine. And finally, an affirmation of God's grace is visible, when you step out of your comfort zone, and is living the journey you that suits you at this time, you open up the opportunity for external and whether random help. People you meet for the first time lend you a £100 bike, classmates offering to cover for you when you don't have an account setup for printing or food. Then you also have the consistency of God's character in all people, caring, and living compassionately for people around them. Simple things like offering to carry bags of grocery, and accompanying others to keep them company. It's been very rewarding to walk this new journey.

Coming back now, I realize how many friends I have here in Toronto, I have some really good brothers who challenged me in my faith, and some that i can just hang out and call at anytime. I had one of the funnest nights in my recent memories. Just meeting up and hanging out led to walking through the city underground path and browsing through the close stores. It was especially great because there is a level of familiarity, and yet, there was catching up and learning more about a friend. Anyway, definitely fun.

So, yes, back in Toronto, it's been snowing pretty hard, and it looks like we'll be having a white Christmas. There is definitely a level of excitement and familiarity that comes with a white Christmas for me. As far back as I can remember growing up here in Toronto, it's always white on Christmas.... except for the past several years, where the climate has been fluctuating more. But with a white Christmas, I'm reminded of the good old days, much like I am reminded of that being back here in Toronto.

Swamped!

The week's winding down, and I got assignments I need to submit. But it wouldn't be typical for me if everything went smoothly. So yeah, i've been sick and bed written for the past few days, as I am suppose to be wrapping up here and just getting ready to go home. I might have to make a couple of adjustments so that I can electronically send in my assignments. But i guess it's just another challenge to focus when your body saids no :|

So, other than that, been missing out on what i'm sure to be quite nice fair wells... but i am excited and looking for to getting back to Toronto to see all of my friends :)

Anyway, anyone interested in a day of SNOWBOARDING this upcoming week? those of you without work? those of you who want to take a day off work? Just crossed my mind... and been thinking about it since...... the past 10 minutes!