It's been a great break from school, long enough to be considered a real break too. I am ready to take couple days to refocus and be compose for the up coming term. I am pretty excited for the up coming term. It was unfortunate that everyone is so busy during Christmas... well, fortunate actually, but what i mean to say is that i only get to spend a portion of time with some of my friends as its split between family, significant other, and other friends. But it is absolutely fortunate that we can spend time with so many of our love ones.
I think one thing that is really missing and the gap continually widening is my relationship with our Father. I thought things would get better as i get home, and reintegrate with my small group as well as with church. But in fact it didn't get better, it just prolong the inevitable. I need to really do something about my discipline... i've seen the signs, and did nothing. Now, when i am praying and reading the bible, i feel disconnected, and unfocused. Anyway, just more complaining than anything, i know i need a change.
Well, Toronto, it's been great for the past 3 weeks, i can't wait to come back. But this time, i think i will definitely plan a bit more..... and just get away to other areas too. But i am also hoping to be able to entertain more guest in the UK this upcoming year. Anyway, will write again when i land in the UK.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
It's a White Christmas!
So I am back in Toronto for Christmas this year. It's been great seeing friends, old roommates, and family. It's amazing how things.... seem different when you come back after stepping away for a little while. I think when you're away, you end up having to answer questions you wouldn't of otherwise asked, prepare everything things that you might not need to when you're settle, and lastly, be dependent on the grace of others you have no expectation of. I find myself realizing that I am more comfortable and confident of who i've become, questions of ethics and action are more firmly answered. When you're with a new group of people constantly, you find out whether you're okay with being alone, when you have to be flexible and wait for others, put others first. Then you realize, when you're in a new town as a student, where it is definitely not as convenient without a car, you realize whether you CAN walk for class, grocery, get around, and basically whether you can setup camp in a new country. I have so much more appreciation for people who don't drive and manage just fine. And finally, an affirmation of God's grace is visible, when you step out of your comfort zone, and is living the journey you that suits you at this time, you open up the opportunity for external and whether random help. People you meet for the first time lend you a £100 bike, classmates offering to cover for you when you don't have an account setup for printing or food. Then you also have the consistency of God's character in all people, caring, and living compassionately for people around them. Simple things like offering to carry bags of grocery, and accompanying others to keep them company. It's been very rewarding to walk this new journey.
Coming back now, I realize how many friends I have here in Toronto, I have some really good brothers who challenged me in my faith, and some that i can just hang out and call at anytime. I had one of the funnest nights in my recent memories. Just meeting up and hanging out led to walking through the city underground path and browsing through the close stores. It was especially great because there is a level of familiarity, and yet, there was catching up and learning more about a friend. Anyway, definitely fun.
So, yes, back in Toronto, it's been snowing pretty hard, and it looks like we'll be having a white Christmas. There is definitely a level of excitement and familiarity that comes with a white Christmas for me. As far back as I can remember growing up here in Toronto, it's always white on Christmas.... except for the past several years, where the climate has been fluctuating more. But with a white Christmas, I'm reminded of the good old days, much like I am reminded of that being back here in Toronto.
Coming back now, I realize how many friends I have here in Toronto, I have some really good brothers who challenged me in my faith, and some that i can just hang out and call at anytime. I had one of the funnest nights in my recent memories. Just meeting up and hanging out led to walking through the city underground path and browsing through the close stores. It was especially great because there is a level of familiarity, and yet, there was catching up and learning more about a friend. Anyway, definitely fun.
So, yes, back in Toronto, it's been snowing pretty hard, and it looks like we'll be having a white Christmas. There is definitely a level of excitement and familiarity that comes with a white Christmas for me. As far back as I can remember growing up here in Toronto, it's always white on Christmas.... except for the past several years, where the climate has been fluctuating more. But with a white Christmas, I'm reminded of the good old days, much like I am reminded of that being back here in Toronto.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Swamped!
The week's winding down, and I got assignments I need to submit. But it wouldn't be typical for me if everything went smoothly. So yeah, i've been sick and bed written for the past few days, as I am suppose to be wrapping up here and just getting ready to go home. I might have to make a couple of adjustments so that I can electronically send in my assignments. But i guess it's just another challenge to focus when your body saids no :|
So, other than that, been missing out on what i'm sure to be quite nice fair wells... but i am excited and looking for to getting back to Toronto to see all of my friends :)
Anyway, anyone interested in a day of SNOWBOARDING this upcoming week? those of you without work? those of you who want to take a day off work? Just crossed my mind... and been thinking about it since...... the past 10 minutes!
So, other than that, been missing out on what i'm sure to be quite nice fair wells... but i am excited and looking for to getting back to Toronto to see all of my friends :)
Anyway, anyone interested in a day of SNOWBOARDING this upcoming week? those of you without work? those of you who want to take a day off work? Just crossed my mind... and been thinking about it since...... the past 10 minutes!
Sunday, November 23, 2008
She's a good girl, loves her mama
loves Jesus, and americans too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
loves horses, and her boyfriend too
and it's a long day livin in ...recida(sp?)
there's a freeway, running through the yard
i'm a bad boy, i don't even miss her
i'm a bad boy, for breakin' her heart
John Mayer - Free Fallin'
It's been a different type of week. Maybe it's the accumulation of several things. But a few bumps here, and work starting to pick up for everyone, I find myself being alone a lot more. And it can get a little lonely, I realize that I've lost a little be of that adventurous spirit, and just being a little bit more lazy. It dawn on me that is when I tend to find God most, when I step out, and allow Him to direct my life. It is the procrastination, "must get this done" now type attitude that I find is hampering me. Right now, I am thinking the importance of Sabbath, and that I need to make a better schedule.
This weekend, I wrote a book report, got a little reading done, and try to do some more writing... but just couldn't do it... watched 4 movies (wanted, national treasure 2, four brothers, and michael clayton. stuff i had on my hd, but never watched...) didn't know what else to do. Oh there was a classmate's birthday, but there was quite a few new ppl i haven't met before.
Anyhow, to wrap up.... stumbled onto this song.... i felt the song really hit home for me for some reason.. can't quite explain it. http://www.myspace.com/johnmayer
loves Jesus, and americans too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
loves horses, and her boyfriend too
and it's a long day livin in ...recida(sp?)
there's a freeway, running through the yard
i'm a bad boy, i don't even miss her
i'm a bad boy, for breakin' her heart
John Mayer - Free Fallin'
It's been a different type of week. Maybe it's the accumulation of several things. But a few bumps here, and work starting to pick up for everyone, I find myself being alone a lot more. And it can get a little lonely, I realize that I've lost a little be of that adventurous spirit, and just being a little bit more lazy. It dawn on me that is when I tend to find God most, when I step out, and allow Him to direct my life. It is the procrastination, "must get this done" now type attitude that I find is hampering me. Right now, I am thinking the importance of Sabbath, and that I need to make a better schedule.
This weekend, I wrote a book report, got a little reading done, and try to do some more writing... but just couldn't do it... watched 4 movies (wanted, national treasure 2, four brothers, and michael clayton. stuff i had on my hd, but never watched...) didn't know what else to do. Oh there was a classmate's birthday, but there was quite a few new ppl i haven't met before.
Anyhow, to wrap up.... stumbled onto this song.... i felt the song really hit home for me for some reason.. can't quite explain it. http://www.myspace.com/johnmayer
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Affordable and Yummy Foods
Never thought I'd say that about England, but I've found a couple gems here that I've been stocking :)
First we have the McVitie's Digestive Cookies - 88p for something like 500g, and they always come with some sort of bonus cookies! 88p is going to last me a week!
Next we have desserts, I think I've found some really good deals... they have this chocolate lava cake type dessert here, it's call triple chocolate pound cake :) And Cadbury has a 2-pack for £1. But I think I found the Sainsbury one a bit more tasty, that one was 3-pack for £1.58.
But today, I think I've found one that tops it all, a 600g package of Apple Strudel (no artificial flavouring, with organic apples!) And it was for £1! I mean yes, i had to bake it, it took like 25 minutes... but it was soooo tasty... And since it was so large, it was Safe to Share! And my Austrian friend said this Apple Strudel tasted authentic! Anyway.... these little food adventures have been been pretty good so far :D
First we have the McVitie's Digestive Cookies - 88p for something like 500g, and they always come with some sort of bonus cookies! 88p is going to last me a week!
Next we have desserts, I think I've found some really good deals... they have this chocolate lava cake type dessert here, it's call triple chocolate pound cake :) And Cadbury has a 2-pack for £1. But I think I found the Sainsbury one a bit more tasty, that one was 3-pack for £1.58.
But today, I think I've found one that tops it all, a 600g package of Apple Strudel (no artificial flavouring, with organic apples!) And it was for £1! I mean yes, i had to bake it, it took like 25 minutes... but it was soooo tasty... And since it was so large, it was Safe to Share! And my Austrian friend said this Apple Strudel tasted authentic! Anyway.... these little food adventures have been been pretty good so far :D
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Playing Hockey in a Developing Hockey Country
So I talk about sustainable development in a developing country, and how to balance between the industrial growth with an ecological sustainability facade, and how SD can be too easily compromise when there is an alternative mission of economic prosperity. Anyway, to draw a parallel, hockey here in England is at it's infancy. The core about hockey that appeals to most man is the speed of the game, fast moving puck, physical hard hitting plays, get in your grill, shove you while you're down type play. It's what us fans entice, watching players play on the fine line of intensity and skill. However, I've realize that at the core of the game where all fans across the world can appreciate, in developing countries, many of the basic necessities are not considered.
For one, changing room large enough to fit a team would be good to start off. As our team went to the Coventry arena, we notice, yeah, the rink it's a bit smaller, and it's not really "design" for hockey as you walk thru narrow passages with your bags and etc. But over all it's.... it's hockey... so whatever. But then, we realize both change rooms combined were not large enough to fit our team of 15. So we had to use the male washroom, set up some chairs, and change next to the fountain of urinals and sinks... Definitely a new team experience when your team is meeting between periods next to the sound of a Chinese water fountain.
Now, we joke about the change room on Saturday, but Sunday, this is a whole different story. First of all, drove about 3 and a half hour one way to get to our game, pretty much like the Leafs taking a road trip down the 401 to face the Sens. But of cause this is a slightly lower caliber hockey. But when we got there, it was literally an ad-hoc type arena. It seem like they built the rink, and just added pieces of brick around the rink to make an arena. I mean, it looked completely authentic to a small town small rink in northern Ontario. But with a small details they over looked, no boards in full contact hockey (actually not as bad as i thought it was going to be), blue line to blue line was about 5 strides on skates. And once you cross the blue line, you're pretty much at top of the slot for a great shot. Now for the facilities, roof was about 30 ft high, 2 change rooms, and an add-on shower which use to be a toilet stall. Now if you haven't picked it up, 2 change room sounds great, but what happens when the team before is changing out of their gear and you're about to play while they're changing? Ummm... good question.....
So what prompted me to post this blog was this.... on Sunday, our team was demoted to change from a Men's Washroom with chairs on Saturday, we changed in the stands on Sunday. Yup, out in public space, spectator area, that was the only area we could change. Absolutely hilarious. And most of you who's been in to a hockey change room knows this isn't like getting ready for baseball. Anyway, sorry to leave you with such imagery, but it was absolutely an experience. However, I must give credit to the guys running the rink, the ice was hard, it was solid, and good to play hockey on; the Zamboni driver was also quite quick and fast.
BTW, our first win 8-7! Go Blues!
Oh one more thing I like to add, driving in the UK is far more fun than I imagined. The turns, th round abouts, and the tight streets! Absolutely a blast. And... get this, my van I was driving, had a sixth-gear! Renault! Nothing like jumping into the deep-end when you are trying something new... left hand rules and left hand shifting.... great challenge! not to mention keeps you awake as you drive 500 miles over the weekend into the wee hours of the night.
For one, changing room large enough to fit a team would be good to start off. As our team went to the Coventry arena, we notice, yeah, the rink it's a bit smaller, and it's not really "design" for hockey as you walk thru narrow passages with your bags and etc. But over all it's.... it's hockey... so whatever. But then, we realize both change rooms combined were not large enough to fit our team of 15. So we had to use the male washroom, set up some chairs, and change next to the fountain of urinals and sinks... Definitely a new team experience when your team is meeting between periods next to the sound of a Chinese water fountain.
Now, we joke about the change room on Saturday, but Sunday, this is a whole different story. First of all, drove about 3 and a half hour one way to get to our game, pretty much like the Leafs taking a road trip down the 401 to face the Sens. But of cause this is a slightly lower caliber hockey. But when we got there, it was literally an ad-hoc type arena. It seem like they built the rink, and just added pieces of brick around the rink to make an arena. I mean, it looked completely authentic to a small town small rink in northern Ontario. But with a small details they over looked, no boards in full contact hockey (actually not as bad as i thought it was going to be), blue line to blue line was about 5 strides on skates. And once you cross the blue line, you're pretty much at top of the slot for a great shot. Now for the facilities, roof was about 30 ft high, 2 change rooms, and an add-on shower which use to be a toilet stall. Now if you haven't picked it up, 2 change room sounds great, but what happens when the team before is changing out of their gear and you're about to play while they're changing? Ummm... good question.....
So what prompted me to post this blog was this.... on Sunday, our team was demoted to change from a Men's Washroom with chairs on Saturday, we changed in the stands on Sunday. Yup, out in public space, spectator area, that was the only area we could change. Absolutely hilarious. And most of you who's been in to a hockey change room knows this isn't like getting ready for baseball. Anyway, sorry to leave you with such imagery, but it was absolutely an experience. However, I must give credit to the guys running the rink, the ice was hard, it was solid, and good to play hockey on; the Zamboni driver was also quite quick and fast.
BTW, our first win 8-7! Go Blues!
Oh one more thing I like to add, driving in the UK is far more fun than I imagined. The turns, th round abouts, and the tight streets! Absolutely a blast. And... get this, my van I was driving, had a sixth-gear! Renault! Nothing like jumping into the deep-end when you are trying something new... left hand rules and left hand shifting.... great challenge! not to mention keeps you awake as you drive 500 miles over the weekend into the wee hours of the night.
VARSITY!
Each week feels shorter the the past... Pretty soon my term is going to be over in 4 and a bit weeks. I can't wait to go home :D
So I had my first match with the Cambridge Blues last night. Feels just like home! Went into this town call Coventry, and played at the Skydome Arena, in which there is also a Ricoh Arena. And get this, the rink was next to a giant IKEA, with a large theater with a "Montana's-esk" bar and grill place. With my hockey gear in one hand and a camera in the other, i definitely felt quite like home.
So the games are definitely different with contact! Man, hockey is at a whole different level when there is contact! Seriously, Don Cherry is right, you can't be afraid to go into the corners when you're going full speed, and you know the hit is coming! BUT IT IS NOT EASY! This 200lb guy chasing after you, and you are about to touch the puck and you know you're going to get rocked... soooooo... i kinda avoided getting hit by getting out of the way a couple times :P
Anyway, game was pretty fun, but I must admit, i was intimidated. I need to learn to hit, take a hit, and better control of the puck without looking down. Well, we lost this one 6-4, but it had some highlight reel moments, breakaway goals, bone crunching hits, heckling from fans, and a teammate even drew blood. So, I think I've figured out my role in the team :D, since i'm not the scorer, the enforcer, or even the get-in-the-corner blue collar player. I'm the driver of the team! hahaha... it's just like what I do back home! It's so ironic... I am driving my team mates to the game, and i'm one of 3 or 4 drivers that can drive to the game because I'm over 25 and can drive stick! Man it's funny how God works sometimes. Alright, got to get ready for my next game as we have 2 games in two nights.
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/CambridgeBluesVsWarwickPanthersNovember152008?authkey=SnnMdHfTd98#
So I had my first match with the Cambridge Blues last night. Feels just like home! Went into this town call Coventry, and played at the Skydome Arena, in which there is also a Ricoh Arena. And get this, the rink was next to a giant IKEA, with a large theater with a "Montana's-esk" bar and grill place. With my hockey gear in one hand and a camera in the other, i definitely felt quite like home.
So the games are definitely different with contact! Man, hockey is at a whole different level when there is contact! Seriously, Don Cherry is right, you can't be afraid to go into the corners when you're going full speed, and you know the hit is coming! BUT IT IS NOT EASY! This 200lb guy chasing after you, and you are about to touch the puck and you know you're going to get rocked... soooooo... i kinda avoided getting hit by getting out of the way a couple times :P
Anyway, game was pretty fun, but I must admit, i was intimidated. I need to learn to hit, take a hit, and better control of the puck without looking down. Well, we lost this one 6-4, but it had some highlight reel moments, breakaway goals, bone crunching hits, heckling from fans, and a teammate even drew blood. So, I think I've figured out my role in the team :D, since i'm not the scorer, the enforcer, or even the get-in-the-corner blue collar player. I'm the driver of the team! hahaha... it's just like what I do back home! It's so ironic... I am driving my team mates to the game, and i'm one of 3 or 4 drivers that can drive to the game because I'm over 25 and can drive stick! Man it's funny how God works sometimes. Alright, got to get ready for my next game as we have 2 games in two nights.
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/CambridgeBluesVsWarwickPanthersNovember152008?authkey=SnnMdHfTd98#
Monday, November 10, 2008
Shoes...
Check this out,
I see these shoes every so often. At first, i thought it might of been shoes for people who want to be taller, then I thought, maybe it's designed for a disable person. Something to help with the walking? Anyway, time and time again i see these shoes at the stores. Finally, i started seeing people wearing them. The first time, an elderly gentleman was wearing it... and i thought... RIGHT! it's to help with old people walk... but later, i started seeing women in their thirties wearing it... And even later, others were wearing it, it was just everywhere and everyone.
So i decided to ask one day..... and boy, i felt silly, it was for good orthopedics... i think that's how you spell it. Anyway... these shoes... i wonder if anyone can ever make them attractive to wear.
So here's the thing, i found myself at an impass as i thought it was ridiculous to wear something looking so silly, (there were worst looking ones then these) yet it could be good for you... but now that i had a chance to think about it... isn't good posture and good health much more important then lookin' fine? But why is it that I just can't ever see myself wearing this... something that doesn't have a aesthetic appeal. I mean... it FEELS absolutely right... and I wouldn't care if no one was watching.... but what is it inside us that just appreciates something that looks appealing?
I see these shoes every so often. At first, i thought it might of been shoes for people who want to be taller, then I thought, maybe it's designed for a disable person. Something to help with the walking? Anyway, time and time again i see these shoes at the stores. Finally, i started seeing people wearing them. The first time, an elderly gentleman was wearing it... and i thought... RIGHT! it's to help with old people walk... but later, i started seeing women in their thirties wearing it... And even later, others were wearing it, it was just everywhere and everyone.
So i decided to ask one day..... and boy, i felt silly, it was for good orthopedics... i think that's how you spell it. Anyway... these shoes... i wonder if anyone can ever make them attractive to wear.
So here's the thing, i found myself at an impass as i thought it was ridiculous to wear something looking so silly, (there were worst looking ones then these) yet it could be good for you... but now that i had a chance to think about it... isn't good posture and good health much more important then lookin' fine? But why is it that I just can't ever see myself wearing this... something that doesn't have a aesthetic appeal. I mean... it FEELS absolutely right... and I wouldn't care if no one was watching.... but what is it inside us that just appreciates something that looks appealing?
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Moved...
Grant Park, November 5, 2008. Damon Winters, NY Times
For me, there are very rare moments where a public event truly captures and entices me emotionally. I can get excited, and I can be angry, but rarely does a movie or a public event really tug on my emotional strings as I just never find it personal. But as I watched the election this past Tuesday, feeling the sense of relief and joy from the Americans in the room, I felt their emotion, and it started to overwhelm me too. There was a sense humility amongst the Americans as the past 8 years was something they wish they can forget. I don't believe Obama is the saviour for the US, and I don't think he does either. But his intrinsic believe that American will change, and it will persevere through the collaboration of each American, black or white, straight or gay, conservative or republican, it is what makes the United States of America works. That sounded profoundly resonating and relevant to me and in my life. And I am excited to see him mobilize this change. While processing that, with emotion running high, and pictures of celebrities cheering and crowds crying, I found myself completely caught up in the moment. And when they pan to a shot of Jesse Jackson overwhelm with tears, I found myself remembering, this is the man that stood next to Martin Luther King when he was shot!.
Stood against discrimination, was accused of being linked to MLK shooting, made poor judgement remark against his cost when he spoke out against Obama. It one of those moment where time seem to pass slower, and you realize, you're witnessing, experiencing history.
Check out some photos from Damon Winters on NYT, this guy is good!
http://www.nytimes.com/slideshow/2008/11/05/us/politics/11052008_Accept_index.html
"I wish I could make music as a religion, then we can harmonize in this mission"
- Black Eyed Peas, Union.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Remember Remember, the 5th of November...
Apparently, this is a real memorial date...
BONFIRE NIGHT!
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/BonfireNight
History
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gunpowder_Plot
http://www.bbc.co.uk/history/british/civil_war_revolution/gunpowder_robinson_01.shtml
Guy Fawkes/Bonfire night
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guy_Fawkes
BONFIRE NIGHT!
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/BonfireNight
History
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gunpowder_Plot
http://www.bbc.co.uk/history/british/civil_war_revolution/gunpowder_robinson_01.shtml
Guy Fawkes/Bonfire night
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Guy_Fawkes
It was a good day!
I guess when you considered yourself to have witness a part of history that will forever be recorded in textbooks and wikipedia (the election of the first African-America President of the United States of America). And the change is moving towards something that is intrinsically good for humanity; regardless of the rest of the day, I should have considered it to be a great day.
However I think what really brighten my day was being able to catch up with my sister, and just talk about things that are also effecting me... as simple as which suit should i buy?... Ga Jei, you're really great at helping me come to decisions when I'm indecisive.... such as stress relieve sometimes! Furthermore, having the chance to catch up with my great friends back at home. I truly felt blessed to haves relationships where we can just chat, and I can be myself! (which is huge!) And have that seamlessly be translated via limited technology of stationary video, and audio feedbacks. Thanks, you guys really made my day.
A quote I heard last night during the Obama acceptance speech; said with tears in their eyes, "I am once again proud to be American."
However I think what really brighten my day was being able to catch up with my sister, and just talk about things that are also effecting me... as simple as which suit should i buy?... Ga Jei, you're really great at helping me come to decisions when I'm indecisive.... such as stress relieve sometimes! Furthermore, having the chance to catch up with my great friends back at home. I truly felt blessed to haves relationships where we can just chat, and I can be myself! (which is huge!) And have that seamlessly be translated via limited technology of stationary video, and audio feedbacks. Thanks, you guys really made my day.
A quote I heard last night during the Obama acceptance speech; said with tears in their eyes, "I am once again proud to be American."
Monday, November 03, 2008
Are we more bitter today than we are yesterday?
So, our class had our first guest speaker from an associated school in the US. In anticipation, our supervising prof told us to read up on the articles he sent out. And just to give you an idea on what these articles were like, it was about 200 pages from 3 or 4 texts that he either co-wrote he reckon have influence his perspective. So spent countless hours preparing for these 3 lecture this past week, and anticipated this great, motivated, and intelligent speaker.
Now, before you start reminiscing on your worst prof, or begin thinking about Ms Kroboppel, let me just say this guy knew his stuff, and was extremely motivated! However, little by little, as lectures wore on, remarks that thought you heard, you begin to hear once more, expressed differently. You begin to scratch your head and ask yourself... did he just say what I think he did? You look around the room, finding several similar faces. But the rest of the class looks unfazed and somewhat captivated. Then he talks about something that you believe in, such as young people needing work that is empowering, so we need to create jobs for them. So you start giving him some more leniency. But as soon as you do that, he goes on saying that he will never quit and give up his position to a the next generation.?!? contradiction?
So I am tempted to just ask him to explain it.... but instead, i think about it objectively, and think I am understanding his point. And really, I would felt bad if I hijack the conversation on some bunny trail.
As the lectures in the week wore on with this professor, you begin to build an image on the fact that he is PRO-democratic, is extremely confident in his theories, has an opinion that is expressed in his undertone when he comments on staying at home moms. Not to mention the least, completely inappropriate examples where sexuality is used with poor reference. (It's funny how after class, when we started sharing, we all had similar questions and was appalled at some of the things he said. But yet no one said anything !?... Interesting..)
Anyway, I think I came to a couple conclusions over this weeks' interesting lectures. One is, you are what your heart is and the condition of your heart will leak and trickle through your developed social filters given enough time. Your filters will catch most of it, but really, there's a deeper heart issue. Second, well, it's more of a question, but... Do you become more bitter as you get older? I mean, this is a successful, well respected professor, teaching at one of the most prestigious US school. you ask.. is it? .... if so... how? but... why? Anyway, some food for thought.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for from it comes the well springs of life." King Solomon
Now, before you start reminiscing on your worst prof, or begin thinking about Ms Kroboppel, let me just say this guy knew his stuff, and was extremely motivated! However, little by little, as lectures wore on, remarks that thought you heard, you begin to hear once more, expressed differently. You begin to scratch your head and ask yourself... did he just say what I think he did? You look around the room, finding several similar faces. But the rest of the class looks unfazed and somewhat captivated. Then he talks about something that you believe in, such as young people needing work that is empowering, so we need to create jobs for them. So you start giving him some more leniency. But as soon as you do that, he goes on saying that he will never quit and give up his position to a the next generation.?!? contradiction?
So I am tempted to just ask him to explain it.... but instead, i think about it objectively, and think I am understanding his point. And really, I would felt bad if I hijack the conversation on some bunny trail.
As the lectures in the week wore on with this professor, you begin to build an image on the fact that he is PRO-democratic, is extremely confident in his theories, has an opinion that is expressed in his undertone when he comments on staying at home moms. Not to mention the least, completely inappropriate examples where sexuality is used with poor reference. (It's funny how after class, when we started sharing, we all had similar questions and was appalled at some of the things he said. But yet no one said anything !?... Interesting..)
Anyway, I think I came to a couple conclusions over this weeks' interesting lectures. One is, you are what your heart is and the condition of your heart will leak and trickle through your developed social filters given enough time. Your filters will catch most of it, but really, there's a deeper heart issue. Second, well, it's more of a question, but... Do you become more bitter as you get older? I mean, this is a successful, well respected professor, teaching at one of the most prestigious US school. you ask.. is it? .... if so... how? but... why? Anyway, some food for thought.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for from it comes the well springs of life." King Solomon
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Time, we all share the same amount, but some people make it count
You can probably guess from the title, it's been a bit of a busy week. But I cannot say it's been draining. Theories in class are starting to get more complex, reading are beginning to pile up, and the weather becoming a bit more nippy. But as theories increase in their complexity, my perspectives are being challenged, while my world view is also being shaped. The MPhil degree is fulfilling the syllabics as was written, providing engineers with transdisciplinary training, being competent in conversation with environmental lawyers, economists, or policy makers. Furthermore, it provides a framework for analyzing and understanding the different point of views of different stakeholders in current and past events. And last but not least, putting together a room full of people who want to change the world for the better has been an absolute blast! Listening and learning from the ideas share in class has been most beneficial.
Now today, I just bought a pair of running shoes. I never thought I'd buy a pair since I HATE running. Many of you already know that, but ever since I've been here in Cambridge, I've been biking everywhere, and my legs are always sore! But what made it worst is playing on the Cambridge Blues Ice Hockey Club. This requires 2 dryland training session per week, +1 practice, +1 game. That's 4 days a week I have hockey. Not to mention the toll it's taking on my body. So this week, doing the Tuesday and Thursday training without proper shoes I found was NOT a good idea. I had gore-tec hiking boots, thought... well, it's wet, and raining.. it'll be fine. Turns out I paid for it later as my arch in my foot was hurting for the next couple days. So I tried something I learned in Benin, put paper in the shoe to give support to the arch. Well, kind of worked. But realize I had to go get a pair of running shoes as these hiking boots weren't exactly light. So I guess I am going to start running when I get back to Toronto. Anyone know where i can get some running gear such as those dri-fit zip ups or some nice jogging pants? I've been totally going North America in these 0 degree mornings... Shorts, Hoodie, and Hiking Boots :D
Oh one more thing I want to add, late last week, I was invited to my first candle lit service. It was absolutely awesome. I sometimes realize just why people put such emphasis on the church building, as an expression of their work for God. I don't think it's as simple as Paul saids, God does not live in temple built by men. I think they knew this, but the effort and detail they put into the building, I believe it was more of an outward expression of their worship to God. It is not only aesthetically pleasing, but an engineering feat with state of the art physics. Check out the pictures below. But I must say, being in the building, with candle lights only, and a choir singing; it really help me settle down, focus, and meditate on God. I can't explain it, but there is something about the practice of religion. The building was completely silent as I walked in, you could hear footsteps bouncing off the walls, you can literally hear a pin drop at the other end of the church. Once you sit down, you hear this marvelous choir voice, resonating from some other room, but clear and loud as if you were listening to a symphony. And you're just in awe how courageous these teen choir people are. Talk about pressure, they just project their voice with full confidence, knowing well that if they were even off by a tiny bit, their sound would be amplify without a doubt, no sound board to safe you now! But yes, absolute amazement at the acoustics of the church and the talent of the choir. Definitely a must if you are to come to Cambridge. Anyway, you should check out the link below, I think the picture would do a much better job then me explaining!
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/CambridgeWeek4#
Now today, I just bought a pair of running shoes. I never thought I'd buy a pair since I HATE running. Many of you already know that, but ever since I've been here in Cambridge, I've been biking everywhere, and my legs are always sore! But what made it worst is playing on the Cambridge Blues Ice Hockey Club. This requires 2 dryland training session per week, +1 practice, +1 game. That's 4 days a week I have hockey. Not to mention the toll it's taking on my body. So this week, doing the Tuesday and Thursday training without proper shoes I found was NOT a good idea. I had gore-tec hiking boots, thought... well, it's wet, and raining.. it'll be fine. Turns out I paid for it later as my arch in my foot was hurting for the next couple days. So I tried something I learned in Benin, put paper in the shoe to give support to the arch. Well, kind of worked. But realize I had to go get a pair of running shoes as these hiking boots weren't exactly light. So I guess I am going to start running when I get back to Toronto. Anyone know where i can get some running gear such as those dri-fit zip ups or some nice jogging pants? I've been totally going North America in these 0 degree mornings... Shorts, Hoodie, and Hiking Boots :D
Oh one more thing I want to add, late last week, I was invited to my first candle lit service. It was absolutely awesome. I sometimes realize just why people put such emphasis on the church building, as an expression of their work for God. I don't think it's as simple as Paul saids, God does not live in temple built by men. I think they knew this, but the effort and detail they put into the building, I believe it was more of an outward expression of their worship to God. It is not only aesthetically pleasing, but an engineering feat with state of the art physics. Check out the pictures below. But I must say, being in the building, with candle lights only, and a choir singing; it really help me settle down, focus, and meditate on God. I can't explain it, but there is something about the practice of religion. The building was completely silent as I walked in, you could hear footsteps bouncing off the walls, you can literally hear a pin drop at the other end of the church. Once you sit down, you hear this marvelous choir voice, resonating from some other room, but clear and loud as if you were listening to a symphony. And you're just in awe how courageous these teen choir people are. Talk about pressure, they just project their voice with full confidence, knowing well that if they were even off by a tiny bit, their sound would be amplify without a doubt, no sound board to safe you now! But yes, absolute amazement at the acoustics of the church and the talent of the choir. Definitely a must if you are to come to Cambridge. Anyway, you should check out the link below, I think the picture would do a much better job then me explaining!
http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/CambridgeWeek4#
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
More Power Equals More Responsibility?
Anyone ever hear the story where an investment bank manager is trying to determine how to evaluate his three junior analysts? Their all smart, competent, and junior. All have a great show great potential in their quality of work since they join the company; so how does the manager really get to know his employee's character beneath the persona they project? Now the manager is going away on vacation next week, and decides to give one analyst a $1,000,000 portfolio, the second a $500,000 portfolio, and the third one a $100,000 portfolio, there was no real specific way he chose, except he just wanted to see their response and the results from each of them with what is given.
Now can you imagine what each analyst must feel. I know there would be a sense of competition to win, but then again, if I was given 1/10 of the someone else, I wouldn't think it to be a fair competition. If i was the analyst given the million. I'd think, great, he's looking at me as the front runner, I need to really perform to prove he's right (or i could slack off...). Second, if I was second, I might think... alright, I can do my best, and if i do better than the first analyst, I might be given a promotion. But if I was the third guy, I might have a defeated attitude and think I've already been written off.
After a month, when the manager returned, he found the analyst with the million maximize his given resource, and got a return of about 10%, as did the second analyst, gaining about 10%. However, the third analyst have already internalize the situation and placed himself in 3rd place by minimizing any risk and just put the money in away in GICs.
The manager was extremely please with the work of the first 2 analyst, while the third he was disappointed with. Now I understand this story might sound bias and one sided, and almost even unfair. But here's the thing, I think I am beginning to understand just what the manager is looking for. I've always thought of the story as being the third analyst, and how unfortunate it was that he was placed in such a situation. But I think I finally come to realize, that if I was the manager, I just want someone that really understands what I am about, and what I am trying to do. Yes the overall result is absolutely important, but I am not trying to compare with the same scale the net earnings of each one, because my point wasn't to measure the overall $ gained. But that each analyst worked their hardest to because they knew I entrusted them with something. I realize how often I tend to internalize a "pity me" attitude. I use to look at my own situation, and realize what an uphill battle I must fight, and the unfortunate thing is that my never give up attitude kept me away from seeing the bigger picture. Instead, I was often just fighting the wrong battle. If i understood what my manager wanted, and I stop seeing what I can do to "impress" him, or find flaws in the other analyst so that I could be different or better. Instead, just realize that I will worked for my manager, the entire system makes a whole lot more sense.
In case anyone is wondering, I got the story from Matthew 25-14-28 in the bible. They tell it much better. The reason i was thinking about the story is this. I feel that lately... and this has been a slow and steady trend, i feel i've been given more responsibility, not a one off, or an opportunity that arise, but steadily, and more often. These opportunities seem to be related in discussing with other situation in life, and developed point of views. It's pretty amazing because I feel as though if given these test again, i might not pass, but God whom i believe controls these events believe that I am actually more ready then i believe are putting me in situation where I have some influence, and can share my thoughts and concern. In fact, I thought i might of failed today, in setting up a convincing argument. And i felt a little sad because I was concern about the potential outcome. I said a quick prayer which I'm certain He already knew what I was concerned about. And within minutes, the same decision was reverse. I was so relieved! I was completely reminded that I just need to work with what I am given. As long as i'm seeking to do what is good and right, I can be certain that it is not the end result that I need to worry about, but that the intent and motives are what are important.
Anyhow, just want to leave a couple pictures for you guys.
London with Harmony
Now can you imagine what each analyst must feel. I know there would be a sense of competition to win, but then again, if I was given 1/10 of the someone else, I wouldn't think it to be a fair competition. If i was the analyst given the million. I'd think, great, he's looking at me as the front runner, I need to really perform to prove he's right (or i could slack off...). Second, if I was second, I might think... alright, I can do my best, and if i do better than the first analyst, I might be given a promotion. But if I was the third guy, I might have a defeated attitude and think I've already been written off.
After a month, when the manager returned, he found the analyst with the million maximize his given resource, and got a return of about 10%, as did the second analyst, gaining about 10%. However, the third analyst have already internalize the situation and placed himself in 3rd place by minimizing any risk and just put the money in away in GICs.
The manager was extremely please with the work of the first 2 analyst, while the third he was disappointed with. Now I understand this story might sound bias and one sided, and almost even unfair. But here's the thing, I think I am beginning to understand just what the manager is looking for. I've always thought of the story as being the third analyst, and how unfortunate it was that he was placed in such a situation. But I think I finally come to realize, that if I was the manager, I just want someone that really understands what I am about, and what I am trying to do. Yes the overall result is absolutely important, but I am not trying to compare with the same scale the net earnings of each one, because my point wasn't to measure the overall $ gained. But that each analyst worked their hardest to because they knew I entrusted them with something. I realize how often I tend to internalize a "pity me" attitude. I use to look at my own situation, and realize what an uphill battle I must fight, and the unfortunate thing is that my never give up attitude kept me away from seeing the bigger picture. Instead, I was often just fighting the wrong battle. If i understood what my manager wanted, and I stop seeing what I can do to "impress" him, or find flaws in the other analyst so that I could be different or better. Instead, just realize that I will worked for my manager, the entire system makes a whole lot more sense.
In case anyone is wondering, I got the story from Matthew 25-14-28 in the bible. They tell it much better. The reason i was thinking about the story is this. I feel that lately... and this has been a slow and steady trend, i feel i've been given more responsibility, not a one off, or an opportunity that arise, but steadily, and more often. These opportunities seem to be related in discussing with other situation in life, and developed point of views. It's pretty amazing because I feel as though if given these test again, i might not pass, but God whom i believe controls these events believe that I am actually more ready then i believe are putting me in situation where I have some influence, and can share my thoughts and concern. In fact, I thought i might of failed today, in setting up a convincing argument. And i felt a little sad because I was concern about the potential outcome. I said a quick prayer which I'm certain He already knew what I was concerned about. And within minutes, the same decision was reverse. I was so relieved! I was completely reminded that I just need to work with what I am given. As long as i'm seeking to do what is good and right, I can be certain that it is not the end result that I need to worry about, but that the intent and motives are what are important.
Anyhow, just want to leave a couple pictures for you guys.
London with Harmony
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Exciting But Busy Week
So since last week, a few things things are worth mentioning:
(http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/StonehengeOct10112008MPhilESD#)
- Class trip to Stonehenge, Winchester, and Hindhead (England's landscape is different than that of Canada's but beautiful)
(http://picasaweb.google.com/hkwong05/StonehengeOct10112008MPhilESD#)
- Classmates are of similar mindset on sustainability. This is exciting because we're going to have the opportunity to learn and combine our ideas in attempt to tackle some of these new problems. This class of ours were handpick by our professor, and I think it shows as the consistency and genuineness of each person is amazingly similar. It's like I told one of our classmates, it's like we only knew each other for a couple days over the weekend, and it's like we have these established friendships that we never knew we had.
- Practiced and am invited to play for Cambridge Blues Ice Hockey team this year, Wow! Never thought I'd play on a varsity team, but worry about the time commitment. Want to do other things along with hanging out with classmates :D
- Found this amazing store call "Poundland" perfect for students as I need some hangers, snacks, and cloths. So happy to have found the UK version of the dollar store here! And it has just about the same type of items you find back at home! Time to raid it when I need to do some one off projects!
- Got really sick yesterday after having a bad dinner. Seriously, the last time i remember feeling this sick was first year in University when a friend had Chinese food imported from Toronto, and that night I was in the washroom! This time, I had my garbage can next to my bed, slept like 14 hours, woke up like 4 times, try to use the washroom, but no go.... :( Not to mention, training on ice for hockey on Sunday for 4 hours, my body decided to take care of what ever was in the stomach that my muscles were SORE! I mean, SORE! it was like I had arthritis in my muscle, i couldn't close my right hand! Glad God is in control of things I can't control....
- Classes have been perfectly entry level so that I can appreciate the fundamentals of the Macroeconomics, Globalization, and Energy Policy. Seriously, if anyone feels like taking a week of class with me, feel free to audit for free, it's almost like signing up for a conference! Except free, and much to take away. I see how here in Cambridge, they really value academia for the sake of learning instead of just trying to squeeze every penny out of you. Mind you things aren't exactly cheap here.
- A line I heard that has kind of stuck with me, and I'm paraphrasing, " When you get to know Him more, you are going to understand who you are more, what you am made for." (Because we are designed in His image).
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Do You Ever Get That Feeling, the Feeling That You Can REALLY Get Behind Something?
So, you know that feeling, that first time you realize you had something really good? It could be a situation you're in, or someone you're with. But initially, there were all these concerns, and issues that you mentally had in your head. But when you committed to the situation, or were forced into a relationship with someone (I probably should of switched the analogy), but my point is.... that when you start realizing just how amazing the potential, and the opportunity that it provides, not to mention the experience.... and your attitude begins to change for the better. Earlier issues might still exist, and it's not like new issues won't be arising, but the difference is, the lens you're viewing through the situation/someone has changed. Now the things that would of bother you are becoming challenges that you WANT to overcome.
Maybe it's me finally settling down in Cambridge, but this is really a town and school I can get behind! I use to think it can be snobby, and expensive, not to mention the difficultly I kept facing in trying to dress and fit into the shirt, tie, and suit environment, but dealing with the rain, long walks, or bike rides in these clothes.... I was like.. ARGH, a car really helps when you're all dressed up. Anyway, my point was this, you start finding solution to these problems, and in the process, you begin to see what this town/school is about. Here are some cool things about the school that I really admire:
Speaking of cool... our class is taking us on a field trip! Going to a wind turbine farm, Stone Henge, and doing some basic studying of old vs new highway systems! Overnight trip Friday Saturday! So cool! I'm so excited about visiting the Henge... Definitely going to bring my camera!
Tomorrow, I'm going to talk a little bit about these interesting shoes I keep seeing here in Cambridge.
Maybe it's me finally settling down in Cambridge, but this is really a town and school I can get behind! I use to think it can be snobby, and expensive, not to mention the difficultly I kept facing in trying to dress and fit into the shirt, tie, and suit environment, but dealing with the rain, long walks, or bike rides in these clothes.... I was like.. ARGH, a car really helps when you're all dressed up. Anyway, my point was this, you start finding solution to these problems, and in the process, you begin to see what this town/school is about. Here are some cool things about the school that I really admire:
- Your research paper belongs to YOU! Unlike most school I've come across, the research paper you do for the phD or Masters belongs to the prof., you might get recognition. But it's how the game is played. But Cambridge gives credit where Credit is due. I love that, these ideas that have been entrenched in the school!
- Here in Cambridge, they really do try to put learning first. As a student, you can audit ANY COURSE with the Lecturer's permission. And in most case, I hear it is encouraged. So you're saying, what's the big deal? All Unis encourage auditing. So let me clarify by saying that when i say audit, i mean FREE. I am so looking forward to sitting down and in some Eng Lit Class. Check out the free classes you can attend if you come to Cambridge this year :) http://www.admin.cam.ac.uk/reporter/current/weekly/6121/
- Absolute emphasis on work/life balance. I mean some colleges gets hired chefs! A well kept college property that is second to none. And 16 hour per module over 8 weeks per term! Amazing.
- At the Cambridge library today, and i'm not that big on books... but something about being in a library that has 7 million books with all of UK's history published journals in the library. I must say it was pretty cool.
- Oh, another thing I love, but it's probably not very efficient for those of you who love efficiency :D But applying for jobs, these guys have a great website, but they are reluctant to set up a system where we the job seekers post our resume, and have the company contact us. I love that, i feel like the onus should be on the job seeker to impress the employer for an interview. Back at home, it seems like sometimes it's impossible to get an interview. And for me, one of the thing is i just don't get a good feel on what the employer is looking for in a "posted" resume. I'm looking forward to trying to find a job here :)
- Everywhere I've needed to go is a 5 minute bike ride. Or i can park my bike and walk around town for 20 minutes getting everything done. It takes some getting use to, but so efficient!
Speaking of cool... our class is taking us on a field trip! Going to a wind turbine farm, Stone Henge, and doing some basic studying of old vs new highway systems! Overnight trip Friday Saturday! So cool! I'm so excited about visiting the Henge... Definitely going to bring my camera!
Tomorrow, I'm going to talk a little bit about these interesting shoes I keep seeing here in Cambridge.
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Whirlwind of a Couple of Days
Wow! Seriously, wow, it's been a few crazy days. In short:
Friday Oct 3, 9am:
*ring* *ring* hk : "hellloooo.. (in a raspy, broken, voice)"
mom: "wai ah keet... doe jui la" (or for those who don't speak Cantonese, "hk, it's here")
hk: "haa? lei gone met yei ah?" ("huh? what are you talking about")
mom: "lei phone shun doe jui la" ("your letter has arrived!")
hk: "oh okay la, heeg dee tone lei goun la" ("okay, call you later")
Friday Oct 3, 10:30am:
hk: so i wake up, email a few people that i got my visa, and started working out my strategy to leave town.
12:30pm:
hk: return product on lone such as 407 transponder!
1:00pm to 3pm
hk: trying to book ticket through RBC to redeem my visa points for a last minute ticket... BOY IT's a tedious process. But finally done.
5pm -11pm
hk: saying some good byes with OMEers and CPCers.
Friday Oct 3 11:30pm - Sat Oct 4, 4am
hk: Reformat and clean up hard drive in prep for school, also packing!
2pm - hk: Pearson
Oct 5 - 6am: Heathrow
7am: lining up for customs
8am: still lining up for customs
~8:30am: "You are holy, holy holy.... so here i am, all of me, finally, everything..." (iPod and Sennheiser make a good combo!"
10am: National Express to Cambridge
12pm: Register at Cambridge (Smooth :D)
2pm: College Meeting
3:30pm: Matriculation photo? What the?
6pm: Dinner! FORMAL? CRaP! (to do: buy shoes)
7pm-10pm: Force mingling :)
Oct 6 - 10am - missed registration :S
20 minutes walk to campus! oh boy!
10:30am - intro to cambridge eng grad programs
11:30 ditched intro to find office for registering! (Boy I love exploring new places, there's this great open concept office in the engineering department on the 3rd floor... absolutely gives off this Green, and forward thinking environment! but too bad it wasn't the sustainable development office :)
12pm-5pm: Eat and Shopping! bowls, groceries (pasta sauce for 22p?!), duvet covers, ethernet cable, etc. (40GBP)
6pm-10pm: Didn't want to walk back to college, it'd take 30+ minutes! Met the Christian Chinese Fellowship in Cambridge... nice to sing praises and pray! Really amazing! One of the person is holding a bike over the year for a friend! YES saved 50GBP for a used bike as i biked home!
10 minutes later I got home! Now everything seems reachable!
Oct 7: 10am - still jet lagged
11:30 - missed safety lecture
2pm - finally met class mates
3pm - library, and hung out with class mates
4pm - finally feel like i'm fitting in.... talking sports... ambition, and what we were doing before taking this MPhil
So in summary.. it's been pretty frantic over the first few days. Haven't even really had a chance to settle down in Cambridge as I just really LEFT Toronto. Seriously, i really miss Toronto over the pass few days. I should be ecstatics getting into Cambridge and meeting new people with similar interest. Maybe it was because I got to see most of my friends during work hours, and being able to hangout really late with my roommates. But life seem like it was at a pinnacle, good friends, had enough money, getting things done, playing games at night. I guess I had this fleeing feeling that life would not be the same, not even when I get back to Toronto as one of my close friend and roommate will be married! Good on ya mate :D but that means no more late night conversation and Starcrafting with roomies. Furthermore, seems like we will be leaving 152 St. Patrick, and boy, I never really knew how attached I've grown to the place. *tears* :(
Once I got here, I felt like a stranger. I spoke the language, but knew no one, and no-one knew me. The events the college threw were nice, some people were constantly looking for the next person to meet, while some I got to know, but we really didn't have too much to chat about. Realize i didn't pack some important items like formal wear shoes and duvet covers. Thought i was going to have a chance to pick up these things, but never realize how much a car helps! Because i couldn't fit everything i needed to get, and it was such a LONG walk home... i was like... CRAP! well, either way, God provided! Found some Christian brothers and sisters, and they provided a Bike! WOW... my mood was completely lifted! I can get around now!
Now a second issue that's been bothering me. I was really hoping to be able to room all my friends that wanted to visit! Really... maybe it was living at 152 St. Patrick, but I really enjoy being hospitable. But i realize i can't do that here, my room is probably 3x4m, and the common area between my other flatmate is literally a kitchen and bathroom... so yup, needless to say, i was disappointed. But over the past couple of days, i realize there is a guest house here at Wolfson :D not sure how much it'd be, but i hear it's big, and capable of housing more than one :D So that's cool.
As the issue started to resolve itself, I must say, walking through the town, through the mall, and just absorbing the town, it is absolutely picturesque! I keep having to remind myself, as I walk through King or Trinity college, I'm walking on the same ground that Sir Issac Newton walked on. Looking into the 800 year old chapel, it was the same site that Darwin once looked at. Anyway, I must say it was very humbling as I walked through the bumpy inner streets of Cambridge's market square. I am beginning to be overwhelm with excitement of this upcoming year, a little sad that I won't be able to share it with everyone back at home in Toronto, and even sadder that I will not have the strong support that I have grown so accustom to back at home. But I guess I need to look forward as this year will pass by very quickly.
Anyway, I promise my post in the future will be shorter and have a better story telling format, I will attempt to bring you into Cambridge, what it's like to see, taste, touch, this town. Yes, i will do this with my surprub English writing abilities! :P
Cheers,
hk
Friday Oct 3, 9am:
*ring* *ring* hk : "hellloooo.. (in a raspy, broken, voice)"
mom: "wai ah keet... doe jui la" (or for those who don't speak Cantonese, "hk, it's here")
hk: "haa? lei gone met yei ah?" ("huh? what are you talking about")
mom: "lei phone shun doe jui la" ("your letter has arrived!")
hk: "oh okay la, heeg dee tone lei goun la" ("okay, call you later")
Friday Oct 3, 10:30am:
hk: so i wake up, email a few people that i got my visa, and started working out my strategy to leave town.
12:30pm:
hk: return product on lone such as 407 transponder!
1:00pm to 3pm
hk: trying to book ticket through RBC to redeem my visa points for a last minute ticket... BOY IT's a tedious process. But finally done.
5pm -11pm
hk: saying some good byes with OMEers and CPCers.
Friday Oct 3 11:30pm - Sat Oct 4, 4am
hk: Reformat and clean up hard drive in prep for school, also packing!
2pm - hk: Pearson
Oct 5 - 6am: Heathrow
7am: lining up for customs
8am: still lining up for customs
~8:30am: "You are holy, holy holy.... so here i am, all of me, finally, everything..." (iPod and Sennheiser make a good combo!"
10am: National Express to Cambridge
12pm: Register at Cambridge (Smooth :D)
2pm: College Meeting
3:30pm: Matriculation photo? What the?
6pm: Dinner! FORMAL? CRaP! (to do: buy shoes)
7pm-10pm: Force mingling :)
Oct 6 - 10am - missed registration :S
20 minutes walk to campus! oh boy!
10:30am - intro to cambridge eng grad programs
11:30 ditched intro to find office for registering! (Boy I love exploring new places, there's this great open concept office in the engineering department on the 3rd floor... absolutely gives off this Green, and forward thinking environment! but too bad it wasn't the sustainable development office :)
12pm-5pm: Eat and Shopping! bowls, groceries (pasta sauce for 22p?!), duvet covers, ethernet cable, etc. (40GBP)
6pm-10pm: Didn't want to walk back to college, it'd take 30+ minutes! Met the Christian Chinese Fellowship in Cambridge... nice to sing praises and pray! Really amazing! One of the person is holding a bike over the year for a friend! YES saved 50GBP for a used bike as i biked home!
10 minutes later I got home! Now everything seems reachable!
Oct 7: 10am - still jet lagged
11:30 - missed safety lecture
2pm - finally met class mates
3pm - library, and hung out with class mates
4pm - finally feel like i'm fitting in.... talking sports... ambition, and what we were doing before taking this MPhil
So in summary.. it's been pretty frantic over the first few days. Haven't even really had a chance to settle down in Cambridge as I just really LEFT Toronto. Seriously, i really miss Toronto over the pass few days. I should be ecstatics getting into Cambridge and meeting new people with similar interest. Maybe it was because I got to see most of my friends during work hours, and being able to hangout really late with my roommates. But life seem like it was at a pinnacle, good friends, had enough money, getting things done, playing games at night. I guess I had this fleeing feeling that life would not be the same, not even when I get back to Toronto as one of my close friend and roommate will be married! Good on ya mate :D but that means no more late night conversation and Starcrafting with roomies. Furthermore, seems like we will be leaving 152 St. Patrick, and boy, I never really knew how attached I've grown to the place. *tears* :(
Once I got here, I felt like a stranger. I spoke the language, but knew no one, and no-one knew me. The events the college threw were nice, some people were constantly looking for the next person to meet, while some I got to know, but we really didn't have too much to chat about. Realize i didn't pack some important items like formal wear shoes and duvet covers. Thought i was going to have a chance to pick up these things, but never realize how much a car helps! Because i couldn't fit everything i needed to get, and it was such a LONG walk home... i was like... CRAP! well, either way, God provided! Found some Christian brothers and sisters, and they provided a Bike! WOW... my mood was completely lifted! I can get around now!
Now a second issue that's been bothering me. I was really hoping to be able to room all my friends that wanted to visit! Really... maybe it was living at 152 St. Patrick, but I really enjoy being hospitable. But i realize i can't do that here, my room is probably 3x4m, and the common area between my other flatmate is literally a kitchen and bathroom... so yup, needless to say, i was disappointed. But over the past couple of days, i realize there is a guest house here at Wolfson :D not sure how much it'd be, but i hear it's big, and capable of housing more than one :D So that's cool.
As the issue started to resolve itself, I must say, walking through the town, through the mall, and just absorbing the town, it is absolutely picturesque! I keep having to remind myself, as I walk through King or Trinity college, I'm walking on the same ground that Sir Issac Newton walked on. Looking into the 800 year old chapel, it was the same site that Darwin once looked at. Anyway, I must say it was very humbling as I walked through the bumpy inner streets of Cambridge's market square. I am beginning to be overwhelm with excitement of this upcoming year, a little sad that I won't be able to share it with everyone back at home in Toronto, and even sadder that I will not have the strong support that I have grown so accustom to back at home. But I guess I need to look forward as this year will pass by very quickly.
Anyway, I promise my post in the future will be shorter and have a better story telling format, I will attempt to bring you into Cambridge, what it's like to see, taste, touch, this town. Yes, i will do this with my surprub English writing abilities! :P
Cheers,
hk
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I had Hoped
It's been quite a roller-coaster ride over the past months. A few things that has really been weighing on my mind included my trip to Benin to build a water filtering system, going away for school in the UK in October, and unresolved relationship issues.
Can't get into much details... but a story that comes to mind is the disciples, on the road to Emmanis, downcast because the person they had entrusted their hope in, Jesus had died, and on the third day, have not come back to life to deliver them from their suffering.
"They had Hoped" in Jesus.... the right person to have hope in, but the intent for him has was their own, and not God's. That is why they were disappointed and downcast. Have I hoped in a resolution in which only I had painted the picture? Such as that I have been ignorant to the repercussions of my actions and ignore the picture the other person is painting for a path to resolution.... Is that why I don't see the whole picture?
Can't get into much details... but a story that comes to mind is the disciples, on the road to Emmanis, downcast because the person they had entrusted their hope in, Jesus had died, and on the third day, have not come back to life to deliver them from their suffering.
"They had Hoped" in Jesus.... the right person to have hope in, but the intent for him has was their own, and not God's. That is why they were disappointed and downcast. Have I hoped in a resolution in which only I had painted the picture? Such as that I have been ignorant to the repercussions of my actions and ignore the picture the other person is painting for a path to resolution.... Is that why I don't see the whole picture?
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